Drip drip drop little April showers

Okay, no, I am not wishing for rain, but I just realized that I have not posted in April yet and I immediately think of that song from Bambi when I think of April. That and April fools day. Which, I didn't even do anything for. I'm no good at thinking of anything though unless it's too mean to do. Like calling people and telling them I have cancer. And that's just cruel, so no, *shrugs*. I wish I had a twin sister that I could switch places with (Go Sweet Valley girls!) See I have the Elizabeth down, and she even likes to read and get good grades like me, all I need now is a wild Jessica twin.

There's been some drama since I last wrote, but I won't go into the details of it. I'm worried, but there's only so much I can do.

There's also been a lot of fun times with Callalily, we had a picnic one day, we like to have fun and play with the camera, we like to watch movies (and yes despite what I know you are thinking, we DO watch them.) We've had midnight snacks, and talked about all kinds of things. We also enjoy silence in the company of the other and nothing has ever felt more right in my whole life. Not even Disney, and I couldn't tell you what it was that made me go to Disney. Wouldn't it be funny if it was something where if I stayed at school we would have met that semester only it wouldn't have worked out? It's funny how things work out, isn't it? I feel sooooo secure where I am at the same time my head is telling me I should be scared because I'm on top of the world and could easily fall. but how can that happen when it feels so right? I think for the first time in my life, my heart is outweighing my head. On the one hand it feels so exquisitely blissful and on the other hand it is a bit scary. So go ahead and call me a hypocrite now "don't get too attached" "make sure you're independent enough should something happen." etc. all those that were waiting for cupid to strike and see how I stuck to what I said go ahead I've finally done it; I've fallen in love.