I Always said I never wanted to be prey to a drug, but somehow I'm hooked

This is going to be a forever long update so if you're here and only have a few minutes to spare, don't waste your time come back later, assuming you're interested in what I have to say.

Friday just before church choir practice I took a shower and I felt so good and so clean and so wonderful. Church choir is always fun. Afterwords Sunflower, Callalily and I went to the dining hall to eat. I forget what we all had, my memory is fried. But I do remember we all had resees peanut butter cocoa puff marshmellow bars, they were very good, but interesting too. We had, well, I atleast had a good time. Instead of going back to my room, I went to Callalily's and listened to music. She has very good taste and I like sharing music and I like her trying to find things she'd think I'd like, she guesses well. S came with us to my room and then to the up all night. When we first got there we made nametags. Mine was written in purple marker. There were so many people there from CSA which was awesome and we had a pretty good turn out. Then they split the guys and girls up and had talks with older men and women respectively. I'm not sure why they had to split us up..I'm not sure I feel okay with that, but it was nice to hear what they had to say. We talked a lot about it being okay to not always be at the top of the rollercoaster which I thought was awesome. And it was nice to hear what they had to say. After that, we congregated into small groups while waiting for mass to start. We had father Bob, also known as the "punk priest" come and talk to us. I liked the fact that he got passionate about what he was speaking about, although and this is no offense to him, he was a bit long winded at times. Mass in the downstairs rooms are always so nice, that's where candlelight masses are held. I like that father Willie always asks questions, we got to that eventually at the midnight mass, but not right away. It was still nice though, and the peace be with you part is always awesome but really nice this time cause there was more people there than there usually are for our candlelight masses, but it was still run the same way in that we spend a lot of time on that part trying to see everyone. Mass lasted longer than it was supposed to but when it was over we relaxed and got a game of cranium going. Another group had the harry potter trivia game out, and I think despite it being like 8 degrees out some people went outside and threw a football around. The something out of nothing game was quite interesting. We split up into groups and were given various things. We had sillyputty strings feathers popsicle sticks and foam pieces, but each group had something different. Each group was then given a word out of the dictionary that were outrageous and we had to make what we thought the word meant and why. We didn't have a cute skit with ours like some did, but our word was quadrig. We made a rig based on an oil rig drawing from four different sources..haha. It wasn't very good, but hey, it worked. Rosary's were after that and I forgot how meditative it is to do the rosary, I'd like to get back into doing it regularly and I'd also like to try taize prayer aand I'd like to go some night when I'm stressed out just to pray cause I know there are times I needed that before and didn't. Father Willie then took us around and explained a lot of the church to us. I found that part sooo interesting. It really is a gorgeous welcoming church. I don't know that I want to go back to anywhere else. But that leaves me really limited on location for the future now doesn't it? *siiighs* what to do, what to do. By this point we were all staaarving thank goodness it was breakfast next. We still had to take pictures with all of our creations though, and we got prizes afterwards which everyone seemed to enjoy. I had a bagel with cream cheese. mmmm. As always I was one of the last to leave. But I had such a good time and I really think things happen for a reason, and I, I dunno it was just...wonderful, I never wanted it to end. The walk back was extremely cold though. my insides were shaking. I had the good fortune to have callalily and S walk me back to my residence hall and then suprisingly as tired as I was, I wasn't tired. SO I chatted to callalily some more and then we decided we should go try and see sunrise even though it was cloudy and very cold. We went to the top of the parking garage and didn't see much at all..but we did get to see a train..choo choo! And even if you can't see the sun, being part of the break of dawn is still a peaceful thing. I never wanted to leave. She came over and looked at pictures until my dad came to get me around 8 and then I was off to home. The roads were bad so I couldn't sleep. As soon as we got home I had an english muffin with peanut butter and a granola bar (all this talk about food makes me hungry) and we were off to WV. Only a little over an hour drive for those that don't know. When we got there everyone was already there except danny. I loooved seeing them all but I was in such a daze cause I was so tired sometimes I could hardly keep my eyes open. It makes me sad to see my family too because I know I have to leave again and I like spending time with them so much. But I have things to look forward to here too. Anyway after they figured a lot of what they wanted to figure out Aunt Roni and I went to church in town, but first we went to Marilyn and Sarah's to get Roni's car. We had some time to kill though and all four of us sat around the table and talked. I had so much fun doing that..I love to talk! Now keep in mind we both come from churches that like to pep up the music. wellll this one was uh not that way. Everyone left there coats on so I felt like no one was really welcoming they were all in there own little worlds, the priest talked like it was routine not like he felt each word, I'm used to that with Father Willie. The person who read the sermons mumbled and was so hard to hear and was in a monotone. And the music was one lady playing the organ and singing and she took the happiest songs and made them sound like they were made for a funeral. And it was so hard to sing songs I knew like that I felt like I was moving through water, and it probably didn't help that I was so tired. But anyway we still enjoyed each others company at church and frooze on the way back to terii and grandma's where my mom's spaghetti and meatballs were waiting for us. MMM MMMMM Then we all went to see Terri's new shop Happy Tails. It's sooo awesome. I'm super psyched for her and for it to open. If she has enough business I might be working for her in the summer which will be exciting, but scary because I don't know that I have enough command over dogs yet. I would describe it...but I'm a terrible describer maybe I'll take pictures and post them sometime but don't hold your breath. even though I left all my stuff at my house...I stayed the night with Terri anyway. Kate and I helped her calculate things and then I went to bed. I was exhausted and could have gone to sleep earlier, but I didn't want to cause i wanted to spend time with them. I slept until 8 but didn't get out of bed til 820 or so and then we left around 830. We (Terri, Kate Grandma and I) had perkins with Marilyn and Sarah and Roni. I never wanted it to end. Terri took me home, Kate had to drive too, but I wished she was with us. I always feel bad now I never know who I want to ride with when they split up like that. I mean I know Terri's my aunt, but I'm just as much friends with Kate as I am Terri, so it leaves me torn. Terri and I talked about the shop although there were other things I wanted to talk to her about too, but didn't. Skittles is so cute I miss her so much and was sad that I didn't spend enough time with her this weekend. Mom and I had a good ride back to school. I talked to her a lot and it felt so nice. We came to my room picked up my shoes that I had to return and headed off to walmart. I feel very much a part of a sexist society because they had practically noooo women's sized hikking boots. Like 2 pairs, one that fit but didn't have ankle support the other didn't fit. and we went to multiple stores after walmart and they had NONE. GRRRRR. Women hike too! Women work too! GRRRRRR. So needless to say I have no hikking boots for my spring break trip, but my mom did bring the other ones home to see if she could take them to a repair place to have them fix them. Well actually she only took one cause it was only one with the problem. Church today was wonderful as always and afterwards online just mind boggling, a couple of very interesting conversations tonight, that leave me confused, but also much less so. I'm tired again and to sum it all up there are plenty of things about this weekend that I never wanted to end. *smiles* it was good though, even though I got like nooo homework done, it was very good. ANd I managed to stay up for 2 hours less than what people work in a week all in a row. haha. I don't know whether that's something to be proud of or not, but I think it's time to wrap this up. Goodnight/morning everyone!